Energy is everything. This uncontrollable force of chemistry and power, consisting of positive and negative space. Scientifically, energy is the utilization of resources to create power. How your energy is effected is based on your surroundings and the positive and negative beings that consume your space. Be aware of the company you hold.
However, it is you that controls your energy. Mentally, energy is the utilization of resources to create power. Power of the mind is greater than any power known to man and without the nurturing of your own mind, you have nothing. YOU are your worst enemy. That subconscious influence in your ear that doubts your existence. You may not be exactly where you want to be but that subconscious makes you forget about where you’ve already been. You may not have everything you want but your subconscious makes you forget about the necessities you already have.
I know that subconscious all too well. That was my mind telling me I wasn’t good enough. That I was incapable of keeping solid relationships because I was too damaged. I had seen too much to turn back from so it would just be better for me to be alone. I doubted myself the hardest way any woman can, as a mother. My existence was not worthy of anything because I doubted myself as a mother. I was broken and I blamed myself, unknowingly of the trauma that had been lingering from my past. I was my worst enemy and I didn’t even know it.
There’s something about patience that should be said about energy. As we age and experience the highs and lows life brings we gain wisdom. Wisdom takes patience. You're going to make mistakes, don’t beat yourself up about it. Sh*t happens. Just don’t get consumed in a pile and expect to like scraping yourself out of cow dung. It sucks, I know from experience. Here I was late twenties mourning the loss of my cousin PISSED at myself for not having my sh*t together. Patience. I had patience for everyone and everything around me EXCEPT myself, not realizing I was surrounded by SH*T.
People not at peace with themselves are mean to themelves. Sometimes you need that solitude of time to look in the mirror and see what you have done to you. What does it take for you to be at peace without the influence of nobody or nothing. To find yourself through yourself and notice those intuitions of doubt only for progression. Walk away for a bit and watch how those around you react, those who have your best interests at heart will never question your motives for self truth.
Sometimes you just need to get away to refocus that mind of yours. Tell yourself I love you. Praise yourself when you’ve done something right. Laugh when you’ve embarrassed yourself. Cry when you need to get it out. Recognize when you’re wrong and stay humble. You can’t be at peace if you’re not recognizing when you need to change. Don’t be so consumed with technology and say good morning or smile to those who pass you by. You never know the demons they are fighting that quiver from fear because of your light.
That’s all it takes. Every action has a reaction and if you’re good to yourself and those around you, you have no boundaries. You are your own worst enemy but your greatest support. Trust those instincts, you’re probably right.